2015 Goals for Me

The past few years I have seen a lot of people who choose a word to embody their focus on the year ahead. I always wondered how they could pick just one word for 365 days and all the adventures in each of those 24 hours. The past couple of days I have been thinking about what I wanted to achieve in 2015. No real resolutions just goals to aim at. All this pensive planning has made one word in particular stand out.


My motivation behind all of the goals has been to enjoy life more. Sometimes the actions to get there aren’t the most fun choice, but in the end they will lead me to a place I can enjoy more.

Less stress. Less worry. Less letting myself go physically.

Time to enjoy the journey instead of constantly focusing on what is ahead and what I have left behind. Savor the seconds.

Some of my goals for the coming year are obvious to me – pass the certification exams to officially become a Certified Paralegal, keep lowering my A1c readings, lower my weight to my goal weight/size, get a job…

Others are more arbitrary – complete five 5Ks, read 50 books, try new things each week, attend at least one Panthers game (I was lucky enough to make it to TWO this year with great seats at both! Felt a bit spoiled!), finally clean out all the clothes that no longer fit or that I like.

What it all boils down to is becoming as healthy and as sustainable as I can be in order to enjoy my life.

Also would love to see my favorite team win the Super Bowl this year, but guessing I should stick with actions I actually have some control over. (BUT they are back to back division champions and have a real shot at Super Bowl rings this year! GO PANTHERS!)



Heart is true, you’re a pal & a confidant

If I had to do this week over, well it wouldn’t happen! But its Saturday night & I’m hoping that starting tomorrow the SUPER week will begin.  Ok I would settle for calm, cool and mediocre.

Still amidst all the chaos & frustration, looking back there are some moments I wouldn’t trade for the world.  Funny how sometimes the things you need most just appear.  In addition to the retail therapy, I stumbled into catching up with a few great people and getting in some much needed face to face time with some of the people I trust most.

For starters Thursday’s shopping discovered that Shadow was also shopping in the same area. After a few text we realized this & decided to snag dinner together.  I know how toxic we can be, but there is certainly a kindred spirit between us.  Turns out neither of us was having the best luck, but at least we had dinner & a few purchases by the end of the night.  I ended up with a couple of shirts that were too cheap to pass up when they easily go from work to play, then it was lingerie time.  When I need support most, I turn to bras, two new ones & a couple of new panties for good measure since they also were on sale dirt cheap. Left out that knowledge in chatting with Shadow! Yeah no pictures of that either.

nearly bought this, but then decided I was just attracted to it since it had a bird on it… I don’t need another coffee mug, or do I?

Friday I set myself up with more interviews in the day than I ever had before & actually ended up feeling less stressed and more confident than I expected.  Distractions work.  Part way through the day I found myself thinking about a pair of shoes I had debated on the night before.  I’m a pretty basic girl & learned that if you get simple basic pieces you can combine them for more looks & just spice them up with accessories.  These shoes were anything but basic! I decided the night before that even though the price was right, I didn’t own a thing that they would go with & passed.  Sitting at my desk I realized the very outfit I was wearing was perfect for the shoes.  Texted a picture I had taken of them to a friend & asked a simple “Do I love these?” to which it was immediately decided that I certainly did! So at lunch I bought them!

I blame these for the strut in the 2nd half of my day

Later that day I decided than rather than just rushing home to sweats & a bottle of comfort, I would go see my gbff.  He proudly announced to the room when I arrived that “this is Ali, my blonde bff!” as he does anytime there are new faces when we get together.  He had ventured in town for the night and frankly I needed the chance to hear the familiar laughter!  There is ALWAYS laughter when we get together, as rare as it is.  Thankfully we were all in chill mode so there was no talk of going out to the cha cha palace or polishing off a few bottles of bubbly… well there was talk, but it was more remembering the good times!  FYI popping open bottles of pink champagne to drink in the parking deck before going to the cha cha palace, DOES slightly sound like a gun shot BUT we didn’t drive drunk & we did save cash on drinks! We are just good like that.

On to today.  Plans t0 get up & do something dissolved when I discovered I was actually able to sleep for more than a couple of hours. When I woke at 8 and had some oatmeal I had the urge to snuggle with Baxter & go back to sleep, so I did. TIL NOON!  Had debated on rushing in to Charlotte to attend the funeral for a great aunt, but it was too late when I woke.  Hadn’t seen her in years anyway.  She hid away the last few years of her life.  Didn’t want anyone around even though the years before she seemed to be all up in anyone & everyone else’s business.  She meant well & I doubt she had much else to do.

Luckily I learned another friend was out & about and we ended up shopping & chatting all over town.  Thankfully I didn’t spend a ton, bought couple of pieces of fabric that needs to become a bag soon & another supply I thought would be fun.  Stuffed myself silly on chicken teriyaki while discussing guys and other trouble makers in our world.  Much needed although totally unexpected.

Hoping things are on the mend.  Grateful for the friends I have made over the years who choose to still stay in touch and some how turn out there when I need to see them most.

General goalsfor the coming year & next few months…

  • 100 Days challenge – 100 days straight of intentional moving 30 minutes each day – FAIL
  • 10 on 10 – give $10 to a non-profit each month on the 10th – looking forward to this month’s giving, although I have no idea what I am doing. Still time.
  • Read more! – haven’t really read in the past few days, but soon
  • Budget each month prior to the month & stick with it – still doesn’t feel natural, but its working. Savings still where I want it & even paying down the debt. Food cost a lot.

As for the more traditional resolutions:

  • Try one new thing each week – does new medication count? I think so.
  • Cook something each week – maybe tomorrow
  • Take one photo I love each week – after the drama this week regarding a photo, I am frustrated with photography. Also noticing through the food pictures just how awful the phone cam is!
  • Continue my love affair with Post Crossing I’ve received over 50 at this point & really need to figure out what I am going to do with them. Just in a box for now, but there has to be a better idea.
  • Floss daily – admit that I did skip a couple of days but back on the horse
  • Meditate more – at least weekly – does just thinking in silence count. no really meditation.
  • Daily food picture –  366 dishes – still fun. still doing. ’nuff said.
  • Spend an hour with someone else outside of work each week – sometime friends are the best medicine

The one we KNEW was coming.



It happened.

24 days straight, then BLEW IT.

I did not work out yesterday.  At all.  Not going through the motions.  Not slow and steady.  NOTHING.

Still dealing with the crud that has ravaged my body the past little while with this sinus infection.  Feeling exhausted & not getting much real sleep.  Work is intense & yesterday I went basically straight from work to meet up with a few people to discuss an upcoming event.  About 3 hours later I found myself at home and too pooped to deal with anything other than just shower, take care of the crew and crash.  I remember the thought crossing my mind several times during the day or I need to figure out when to work out.  But in the end, nope.

So no kindle?


& damn skippy I am not actually saying fudge.

Still the end result is to develop a habit.  So pick up the lazy ass & get back in gear.  Preferably also kicking my heels up high enough to impact with my rear end forcefully.  Yes ass kick is deserved.

BUT I also know the value of giving your body a break when it needs it.  Frankly if I wasn’t getting over being sick, I wouldn’t have any excuse.  Should have worked out, but I didn’t.  I also probably should have rested a lot more before I got as sick as I got.  But I didn’t.

I’m making myself a deal.  Since I am still struggling to breath like a normal human being & sleeping isn’t anything I am a champ at, its time to bend a rule.  Life isn’t fair, so why not give perks for good intentions?

So worked out tonight.  Full 30 minutes.  Maybe not full throttle, but I did it.

 Tomorrow I will work out again.  The next day, the following day & every day after that.  The habit (& Kindle Fire) will be mine as long as I keep focused.  One slip shouldn’t stop me from climbing the mountain.  As long as I keep up the 30 minutes per day for the remaining days AND I make up yesterday’s work out – I’m going to count myself as still on track.  The caveat is that since I missed a day, I have to work out for an extra hour to make it up.  So one day is going to be that day’s 30 minutes PLUS the make up hour.

Otherwise its off.  No Kindle Fire for me.

Does this make me weak?  maybe.  But giving up and not being gentle with myself is going to be a lot worse.

Still after this no more free passes!  As a friend says “time to work that ass!” Bring on the habit.  Then who knows where I may challenge myself to go?

General goalsfor the coming year & next few months…

  • 100 Days challenge – 100 days straight of intentional moving 30 minutes each day – hanging head VERY low.
  • 10 on 10 – give $10 to a non-profit each month on the 10th – gave to the Cape Fear Literacy Council
  • Read more! – Five books down.  As much as I want to reach my goal of 24 in record time, some books you just don’t want to end. Loving the lunch time escapes!
  • Budget each month prior to the month & stick with it – good news, I have found a great way to track what I am spending & have a better grasps of everything.  Bad news – tracking it doesn’t make me want to spend less. Just more guilt. Feels over budget today, but just because I paid for a full tank of gas, to have my oil changed during lunch & groceries. Ouch!

As for the more traditional resolutions:

  • Try one new thing each week – Attended a new group for crafters tonight along with a friend I hadn’t seen in way too long.  So many ideas brewing.
  • Cook something each week – Potluck at work tomorrow. How silly is it that it takes that to get me to do anything productive in my kitchen?
  • Take one photo I love each week –Exciting! I love being able to snap pictures of life. More to come… I promise.
  • Continue my love affair with Post Crossing today TWO! One great Pixar card with a snowman & a jack hammer & another with a beautiful staircase from Poland. So much fun.
  • Floss daily – for all these years people have had teeth & a string is the best we can do for this? where is the innovation? still better than a twig I guess.
  • Meditate more – at least weekly – ok ok soon.  really. I know.
  • Daily food picture –  366 dishes – my eating habits are crap lately.
  • Spend an hour with someone else outside of work each week – Thankfully this isn’t an issue this week. Connecting with so many friends! Yesterday, today, tomorrow! Even have more plans in place for Saturday and a Tweet up tomorrow.

Go On Guess

Guess what’s different….

Really.  Did you notice?

Nope. Not my hair or nails.  I didn’t change my purse (although I should soon). All out of guesses?

I’ve added a new widget to track the reading this year!

Look it’s over there to the Right! —->

well… you have to look down just a bit further on the side here, but its there.

I promise.

Turns out one of my favorite new finds in websites, Goodreads, is challenging readers to set a goal for the number of books the will read in 2012.  Since reading is always a goal for me, I went ahead & added my name to the list.

A couple of years ago I set the 3 books a month goal. Last year, I may as well have been illiterate.  So I went what I thought would be a good goal – one per month.  12 books for the year seemed like a good plan.

As I type this, I can proudly say I have completed THREE books since the start of the year.  Evidently being sick has an upside – time to read.

Finished the 3rd last night and already started number four today while working out.  Still slow & steady (and severely congested!) but I walked for 30 minutes while reading.  Again not looking to break world records, just trying to retrain myself that this is a non-negotiable part of each day.  Like reading.

Honestly maybe 12 books this year isn’t such a good goal.  Maybe I’m not reaching high enough.  So I’m upping the ante.  Doubling it actually!  Hoping that this is something that will be a challenge, but motivating at the same time.

Also thinking that with 17 days down, there are only 83 days away from my Kindle Fire.  April 9th can’t come soon enough.

So read anything good lately?

Hoping that I’m not the only one who is reading still.  Feel free to leave me some suggestions on what to read next.  I have a few titles in mind, but you never know where you might find the next best thing! So share…. leave me a comment on what you are reading or wish you were, or just finished.  Are you up for taking the challenge?  How many are you pledging to read in 2012?

Day 12. Resolve or Dissolve

Wondering how long the average resolutions are kept.

Some are broken in hours.  Others days, weeks… but there have to be some that actually become new habits.  Change from resolutions to just everyday life.  There are things left behind without ever realizing we did.  Others come into our lives and stick.  No one says this will be the final page I color, but there is that final piece.  Would we stay a bit more in the lines if we knew? or go all out in reckless abandon filling the sheet on our own terms?  Subconsciously or with thought, we change.

Whether we want to or not.

Week Two check in…

General goalsfor the coming year & next few months…

  • Purge 100 things from my world within the first 2 days of 2012
  • 100 Days challenge – 100 days straight of intentional moving 30 minutes each day – more on that in a second….
  • 10 on 10 – give $10 to a non-profit each month on the 10th – gave to the Cape Fear Literacy Council
  • Read more! – Finished the first book of the year! 48% into the next one and I am loving it.
  • Budget each month prior to the month & stick with it – so this is where all the cash goes…. crap. I need to make more cash or do better at this.

As for the more traditional resolutions:

  • Try one new thing each week – didn’t think this would be so hard to think of new things! Must think up something quick.
  • Cook something each week – I baked. It came from a mix, but I baked.  Thankfully they were not all for me but I did enjoy a couple – quality control of course.
  • Take one photo I love each week – last week, well nothing.  I took pictures. But do I love them? eh. Maybe a couple.  This week… a phone pic from this morning melts me!

oh Baxter! So sleepy, yet I dragged him out early to go get his nails trimmed.

  • Continue my love affair with Post Crossing nothing to report on this yet for the week.  Maybe I will mail out another tomorrow.
  • Floss daily – in all honesty. yesterday, I didn’t floss. today, I did.
  • Meditate more – at least weekly – nope. not so far. When did this go from often to never anyway? Why did I stop meditating?
  • Daily food picture –  366 dishes – I seriously need to eat better & this is proof for sure.
  • Spend an hour with someone else outside of work each week – there are a couple of events this weekend I am looking forward to.  I just feel drained after work & a day listening to people complain does not exactly make me feel like being around people.  Thankfully the parrots don’t talk too much.

So back to that 100 Day Challenge.  Did I work out?  Well, my lazy butt is feeling especially tired tonight.  Thought, well I could do an hour tomorrow since its already so late tonight.  Then…

that came on TV.  I’m not even kidding.  That very commercial.  Divine message?  Perhaps.  Perhaps not.  Either way, it was certainly motivation that I needed.  Had to laugh out loud, shake my head & smile.

So up & onto the treadmill.  Thankfully Thursdays are good nights for TV to distract & the parrots each got to take a turn hanging out while I worked out.  Just 30 minutes.  Nothing spectacular or intense, but its done.  One step closer to that Kindle Fire at the end.

No.  I will not quit on day 12.

New Day, New Life, New Me

Resolutions, schmesolutions… you can change for good anytime, not just on New Years! Still they are quite fun!

Yesterday I shared a few general goals for the coming year & next few months…

  • Purge 100 things from my world within the first 2 days of 2012 (54 things out of my life so far! Going to hustle today on those other 46.)
  • 100 Days challenge – 100 days straight of intentional moving 30 minutes each day (S0 far so good! That Kindle Fire is staring me down on Day 101!)
  • 10 on 10 – give $10 to a non-profit each month on the 10th
  • Read more! (couple pages deeper into a book I started last year)
  • Budget each month prior to the month & stick with it (Staying home yesterday & spending no cash helped with this!)

Today I share a few of what some may call resolutions.  For me that term seems to have this stigma of defeat.  So many are broken before the first calender page comes off.  For me its less about what I am giving up or changing & more about how I can live better.

  • Try one new thing each week
  • Cook something each week
  • Take one photo I love each week
  • Continue my love affair with Post Crossing, but start mapping where all they came from – got the box to organize better, now need the map
  • Floss daily (was inspired by Gluten Hate’s Me’s post & have to say I love the Sticky Idea for the reminder daily!)
  • Meditate more – at least weekly
  • Daily food picture (follow along? 366 dishes – could be breakfast, lunch, dinner, snack,.. you just never know with me!)
  • Spend an hour with someone else outside of work each week

Today has been a late start thanks to another night dealing with the night terrors.  Realize that I have been slack with the meds, which isn’t a bad thing since some shouldn’t be taken with the alcohol – like no Ambien this weekend!  Still I as far as sometimes I think I come, there is always set backs to move past.  Strange how sometimes you wish you could stay in a dream forever yet some you can’t get away from fast enough.   Hoping those end soon as I get back on track.

Off to finally get a day planner for 2012 and hoping to find a decent sports bra on sale.  The couple I actually own are just pointless & with a certain semi-annual sale happening, maybe I will finally find one that does more for me than just turning the girls into a smushed up uniboob.

Best of luck to everyone who is setting resolutions and goals.

Lets all be realistic here & make the first thing on our lists to be ACCEPT OURSELVES.  We can enhance & improve & change the daily schedules, but ultimately we will be who we are, which isn’t always a bad thing – even if its not who are expected or influenced to be.

Be You

Hoping that we all make changes for the better this year & that 2013 finds us improved and more of who we truly are supposed to be.