Facebook status today: : “Eat, Pray, Love. Then later I think I will Eat a steak, Pray I cooked it all the way through & Love my stretchy pants.”
So on this lazy Sunday with equal parts daylight & night sky, I FINALLY got around to watching Eat, Pray, Love.
I know, I know. I am far behind the rest of the world, but its their fault! It was overly promoted both as the book & the movie. It looked great,but frankly I am the type that doesn’t need to hear or see all the details PRIOR to reading/watching! Then its a waste of my time.
So I waited.
I almost started the book last summer. Had planned to read it in the time off from work after the surgery in July. Unfortunately the post-op pain meds & my sister’s obsession with reality TV didn’t let me focus enough to get through hardly the 2nd chapter. Darn tiny house with no where to escape to!
I wanted to read the book before the movie, but today I just gave up & watched the DVD.
It was beautiful & perfect timing as I am taking a break from the 9-5 world, serious relationships & just allowing myself to be without the stresses.
It followed a nap on the couch with a snuggled up pug that only ended when a certain peach fronted conure crawl up & decided to send a few kissy noises my way while staring at my face. Funny how you can be nose to nose with barely an inch apart & that is sure to wake you up!
Silly Binx! Good thing I love you & you chose the kissy noises rather than the loud as anything conure shreak!
So back to the movie… I of course like most people found myself in Liz’s character. The one thing I don’t get is …. what next? Does she go off with the guy & lose herself again? Back to the accomplishments of the checking off the life list others expect?
Was it all a time out or are there really people who find a way to break free from the standards & create new lives, successful in their own eyes & hearts, that are sustainable? Emotionally, financially & healthy to sustain. The more time away from the stress of working and the stress of relationships, the more I realize that I feel stronger & happiest when I am living life on my own terms. I want to dye my hair purple, I do it. I want to eat steak, mango & sweet potato for dinner I do it. No one to consider what they will think or if it works for them. Its works for me & that’s all that matters.
I know at some point I want to be in a relationship. I know at some point I need to find a way to pay the bills for the things that I enjoy like cable, clothes, food, gas & car payments… & oh ELECTRICITY! But can’t their be a way that doesn’t completely drain our souls?
Doesn’t life have a way for us to dance to the beating of our own drums anymore? Or will there always be countless Dementors waiting to get us the moment we step out of lines?
As for me, I’m off to dream of where my own year of finding myself would lead. I think I would like to Eat in either Cuba, France, Puerto Rico or maybe even across the United States Road Trip style in local spots. My Pray would be in so many places, the Mayan Ruins, Ireland, Egypt, Tibetian Monastery or maybe a Buddhist Forrest monk’s place in Thailand (is Ajahn Brahm still there?), New Orleans or maybe just back to Salem for more time with someone great I have already been blessed with meeting. The Love seems to be the hardest for me. All I can come up with is a place I would love to be at, although not sure it would include another or just me…. Turks & Caicos call my name.
Sadly, the funds for the adventure just don’t seem to be showing up out of no where. Careful what you wish for! I certainly don’t want any more inheritance money coming my way anytime soon, I prefer the relatives living. So for now I will go cook that steak, bake that sweet potato, slice the mango & savor the dinner that I long for solo.
…yes I already have on my stretchy pants!