What a glimpse into why I take ambien? Because my brain is insane. It creates these wild experiences that sometimes I can grasp & understand. Other times they don’t really have much rationality or reasoning. At times either type can scare the crap out of me.
Case in point. Last night around 3:13 am there may have been calls to 911 about a lady screaming because not only did I not take ambien to chase away the dreams, I also slept with the windows open all night. So when I woke up screaming not only was the pug there looking at me trying to cuddle, I also realized that anyone within a couple of blocks probably could hear my wake up call.
So what was the one last night?
Muthafrukin snakes on my muthafrukin brain.
More specifically, copperheads. Like A LOT of copperheads. Everywhere I went there were these copperheads that seemed to be aware that I was in the area and dead set on finding me & crawling on me. Like touching me. Following me. Not biting me thankfully but wanting to slide right up my leg around my arm & be held. WTF.
Copperheads? Why the specific snake? Why not just random ones? It isn’t as if I have had one appear in my world recently, THANKFULLY! They are native to this area & a few months ago I watched one slither around in a local park just living life. Just gave it a wide berth.
I am not terrified of snakes, but at the same time I don’t really have the desire to be all buddy buddy with any of them. As a kid I got into a lot of trouble for finding snakes & wanting to keep them. The black or green snakes weren’t too bad, but anything brown sent my parents into hysterics. I learned to leave them be. Now water snakes… they do scare me senseless. So that would have made more sense. But nope there I was with a bunch of copperheads following me around like I was their favorite thing.
Doubt anyone has a pinterest board for copperheads.
Still it felt like one of those dreams that was trying to tell me something. Add to the memories that stuck, all day I feel like out of the corner of my eye I am seeing (you guessed it) copperheads.
Random things like this bug me. I know. I’m nuts like that.
Still when something sticks, I check it out.
So why the copperhead? I turned to some dream interpretations to see what they had to say about it all. Sexuality? no that didn’t really seem fitting. I wasn’t bitten and wasn’t afraid of being bitten. Just annoyed at the mass coming at me & well… that they were there period. In some cultures the snakes protected the oracles and temples. Servants of the earth goddess.
Then I found an explanation that resounded with me & seemed to be a better fit:
“As a positive symbol, snakes represent healing, transformation, knowledge and wisdom. It is indicative of self-renewal and positive change”
Dreammoods.com has the best fitting I found. Several others seemed to agree that they symbolize transformation and great change in the works.
Others spoke of snakes as spirit animals that signified changes and needing to pay attention to where your energy is being used. Healing and transformation aspects again. (ah yes remember the snakes on the medical symbol?) A great change in life. Shedding the past and moving to the future. Now that sounds perfect!
So although it was a scary situation, I guess it has its place and message. At least that is what I am going to choose to see it as. Hopefully not as scary.
We shall see.
& hopefully I won’t be seeing anymore copperheads in my dreams or awake!
Reading too much into it all? You betcha! But sometimes life can be fun like that. Still I think I prefer a nice quiet, restful night of sleep.