Style icons? Can’t really say I have thought much about that topic but there it is. This week’s topic for the 52 Lists.
& a refreshing break for my mind.
Focus has been on preparing for this baby shower. When I’m not thinking about how everything has changed since Mom died. Has been a tough week. Missing her more and more each day. Hard to fathom how much things change. Little stuff. Roles lost. Duties undone. Several things got me thinking about how different life is when you take people out. The way relationships change. The more I try not to think, the harder it is to stop thinking.
No matter how much I wish I could change the past, I can’t. Yet I can’t help but think about how things would and should be different.
Not sure what good it does but I can’t stop.
Music comes on the radio, I cry. TV shows and movies to distract, some how it relates & I cry. Keep telling myself you feel to heal. But I’m tire of crying. I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of missing Mom. I’m tired of worrying about everyone else and what will happen. I’m tired.
Thankfully I have plenty of time to sleep.
Another 24 down.