Tomorrow is the last day I have left at this age.
Birthdays are just another turn of the earth & years are simply a rounding of the sun, but they feel like so much more. Check points on who we are becoming and all that has changed through the year. Usually I do just fine enjoying the celebrations but this year I’m just not feeling it. Maybe it is true that after a while you just don’t care anymore.
So many things I thought would be haven’t happened & still curious about when it is you start to feel like an actual adult. Frankly I don’t feel my age much less the age I am becoming.
With everything going on in my world, I have so much to be grateful for and so many wishes that come true everyday.
Still I long so so much more.
More wishes to make.
More days to celebrate.
Maybe tomorrow will feel better. Perhaps I will feel more accomplishes & less wishing I had checked a few more things off the life list by now. Less angry about a few “adventures” I’ve had along the way.
Its like in politics. You stop yearly and ask yourself “Am I better off than I was last year?” So am I? or am I exactly where I was?
One thing is for sure, career wise – I know I am certainly feeling the punch in the bank account & less stable, but long term I feel light years ahead of where I was. So much more of where I should be and excited about where I am going.
Other areas of life? well… maybe I still have some growing to do & wishes to come true.