Finally got one of those moods I have needed for a little while now.
Spent the morning starting the house hunt. Not going too hard, but its become an option recently & I’m entertaining the idea.
At first it felt a bit like giving up on another dream. Honestly I wanted to house hunt for a new home with a new partner & doing so felt like I was closing that door. But I need change. This place holds way too many memories on the inside & too much chaos on the outside. this is no longer who I am. Moving on to something new, doesn’t mean I will be there forever, but for the next phase in life. I still may meet someone & move on to “our home”, but til then why shouldn’t I have a home? this place feels like a box of old history just sealed away. Dunno. Just thinking at this stage.
Great news on the family front. Even if it was a bit rocky this morning discovering that my mom had to go to the hospital Friday & was there all day. Funny NO ONE told me about it. But my sister says she tried to call & she did tell me today. Better late than never. At least they are making a better effort to keep me in the loop. Trust is hard, but we are working on it.
Helped that I got to talk to my mom who sounded more like herself than she has in a while. She is doing MUCH better & eating. I had to laugh when I heard she requested refried beans. That was what I craved after a major food poisoning attack years ago. Guess I got it from somewhere honest! I still think that stuff is better than jello on a sick day.
Caught up with a bestie who I was worried about. Seemed a bit down after moving to south florida recently. Today he seems more like himself too. Takes time. He is such a spark I know they will love him there once he gets discovered. Truth is anywhere can feel like a place to run from or run to. Its the people in our lives that matter. If the backdrop ends up being breaktaking, then its a bonus! So smiles to know he is doing better & to get to text our humor back & forth so much today.
Also got to catch up with Shadow before he heads back to the road for work. Just a quick dinner…so quick that I ended up ordering the calamari & his wine while I was there solo waiting for him to get there.
Felt good to talk about everything (without actually talking about everything) & even teased a bit about how green I am in my cater waiter skills. Something about great friends that just relaxes you. Free Olive Garden doesn’t hurt either. I got next, so we are going to have to hit up a Sonic or something! ha ha JUST KIDDING.
So I’m ending the weekend where the world would have ended with a smile. Still wish I could have gotten a hug from my mom, but one from Shadow helps.
& even if I didn’t get to go see Bridesmaids or Pirates of the Caribbean, I had fun. Besides, I’ve been a bridesmaid more times than I needed to be & frankly like is a bit like a pirate around here with all parrots (& the one swearing like a sailor!).